it doesnt matter

to me if anyone pays attention to this blog at all

as long as..if someone does,they enjoy it.

lately ;

i have been trying to figure out what piercing i want to get. i have NO idea if i want my belly button done, my cartilage, somethin fancy in my ear..im lost with that whole dream.

uhhh...
i got more hours at my job, so im happy about that.
...

i wonder why i must be the way i am.
like even when i want to change for ME i will still slip back into old thoughts..rather than habits.
i dont really have any bad habits other than eating junk.
but anyways, i have had anxiety issues in the past, and i usually feel like i am over them but sometimes it just comes back. not fully like last time but still..
it sucks when you obsess over things in your mind that aren't even important.

and you can't really help it until
you just forget you were even thinking
about it in the first place.

it just sucks.

someone asked me to shoot them!
like with a camera.
and it excites me that people actually like the work(, i guess you could call it work)
that i do.
but i have this problem, i get nervous and shy and just weird when it comes to doing a photoshoot.
i guess im just not good with people?
but i AM good with people ..ish.
i dont really know how to explain myself.
this is where it ends tonight.