so, i've been trying hard

not to over think things like i usually do.
& not to jump and say things, before thinking of what will happen when its said.

but i've been thinking lately, and i miss being in love with you.
i miss when we were in love

and i wonder if we are going to get that back, or if it is still here and has been here all along?

so there i go thinking too much.
but i needed to say, or type that.

but instead of telling you that directly, i think i will just continue to see where we go, because i know that is the way you want things now

eh, i dunno

i hate remembering this past summer, but i loved it at the same time.

it makes me mad, and sad, and happy.

there will probably be no other summer where i've felt so diversely emotional.

it just upsets me a lot when i remember it all, all the pain. the kind of pain you can feel everywhere in your body.

i'm really hoping that with time, it wont affect me as much. because at times like this it gets me all "bleh"

hmmm

on a good note i am getting a second job. score.
'night.