always wondering, never knowing

um

I miss who was my best friend

hi

i am happy again!

yeaaaaaaaaah

but i feel like i have alll of these ideas just no motivation, whats the matter with me?

there are inspiring people and things all around me, why am i not picking up on that entirely?

i know the inspirations there, but i am not acting.

i suppose i will figure it out

like we eventually all will

i'm happy to be happy. it makes me feel weird reading what i did write, but at least it is honest and true

makes me so upset that i want to puke. everytime.

there are still all of these emotions bottled up inside, i wonder when i will explode.

so, i've been trying hard

not to over think things like i usually do.
& not to jump and say things, before thinking of what will happen when its said.

but i've been thinking lately, and i miss being in love with you.
i miss when we were in love

and i wonder if we are going to get that back, or if it is still here and has been here all along?

so there i go thinking too much.
but i needed to say, or type that.

but instead of telling you that directly, i think i will just continue to see where we go, because i know that is the way you want things now