my posts are usually about you.

i guess its sometimes the easiest way for me to tell you things.

we're going through a hard time right now.

but i don't want it to be so hard.
i knew this would happen eventually, because you told me your plans a while ago.
i really don't want anything to come between us, ever.
i know that we can get through this, but im afraid you're going to keep distancing yourself from me, and i don't want that.
i want to be apart of your life right now, and always.
<3

my heart hurts

you don't even know how i feel

i think the reason why i feel like sometimes you don't really care is because of all the things i say that you ignore.

because you can never make plans with me.

because all you tell me to do is "take a chill pill"

and if you ever read this you would probably just get mad and turn it around on me.

you need to understand that i have feelings and they are still hurting from all the things you said.

when things like this happen between me and you, i don't know how to feel.
i don't know what to say to you. i dont want to make it worse. but i keep how im feeling inside for only me to know.

i know you only said things because you care...

but show that you care please.
i want more love.
i want attention.
i dont want to be ignored anymore.
i dont really care if that is selfish or not. its what i need.

maybe one day ill show you this.
maybe one day soon.

i love you.

change

i'm not too good with it..
when things change..
when people change
when people expect you to change
when places are different

it leaves me feeling quite lost sometimes.

i don't know how to react to it.


that's all i guess