when i need to spill..

it's nice to have this to type out how im feeling.


i know that, people need to do their own things.
and i know that i need to do mine.
but what about the US part.
whats going to happen?
whats going to happen to us.
and i really DONT want to obsess over it but i feel like i give myself no choice but to think about what will happen when it happens.
i dont want to say anything though, ill just think about it every so often until it happens.

and
im scared.


another thing.
i really dont like who i am sometimes. i just wanna stop being myself :|