when i need to spill..

it's nice to have this to type out how im feeling.


i know that, people need to do their own things.
and i know that i need to do mine.
but what about the US part.
whats going to happen?
whats going to happen to us.
and i really DONT want to obsess over it but i feel like i give myself no choice but to think about what will happen when it happens.
i dont want to say anything though, ill just think about it every so often until it happens.

and
im scared.


another thing.
i really dont like who i am sometimes. i just wanna stop being myself :|

i dont know

what i want to do with my life..
or what i want to be..




i only know one thing.

i don't get it..

i dont really know why i am the way i am.
i can be really open and a lot of fun with groups of people.
i dont know why i limit myself.
there are reasons..but they dont make sense.

overall..i wish i was more fun.
i wish i could be a party person and enjoy sitting around with people i dont know..

let it out

everything thats been going on lately,

i started school at tech high, which i love.
im in digital communications

i can drive SOON but no wait, its been rumored that now we must wait an additional 3 months more than 6 months. so i might NOT be able to drive soon :(

the weather has been PERFECT the past two days.

im STILL in love.
very much
:D

i still scoop ice cream under new managament.

and i still have jealousy problems that i need to work on
which is kind of a focus point for me.

but i have gotten SO much better