i love the stars

and they love me too.

today was an important day,
it marks two years that ive been with ryan,
and i STILL couldnt be happier :)


<3

clumsy

cause im fallin in love

i will always

love the song
make you smile by +44



i work tonight with dani.

heres my 365 for today that im actually pretty happy with

i went outside with no idea of what to do and it just happened

my hair.

i want to cut my hair.
i want to let it grow,
i want to dye my hair,
i want to keep it blonde.

decisions, decisions.

photos

that i took today.

these, i actually captured in the reflection of my glass door.





i liked my hair in this light and thought this looked cool




dani and i :)

i think there is a reason

that i worry so much about certain things,

when a familiar feeling comes back.

i worry that history will repeat itself.
i guess i should realize that that doesn't always happen.

i need to get out of here and leave someone alone
the reason being,
because i remember a while ago, when i really got on their nerves, and they told me that.
and i get really paranoid about it..
i hope that "they " reads this and realizes the real reason i feel the way that i do..

i think i might go somewhere with dani, because we are both very bored. and need out of our houses.

i am embracing

myself, for everything that i am.

i miss ryan

isn't it interesting?

what people think of you?

i just looked at my photos on facebook and you know.. those tag things, where people tag you on certain personalities... im so bad at explaining but you get me.
anyways,
one was
" the smiley one"
another was
"the shy one "
and another was "the smitten one"
i mean, they are all true, but people think so many different things of someone.
i've had someone be completely surprised that i have a myspace.
in my mind i was like, "really? do you really think that im some sort of social outcast?"
i guess thats title you get when youre stuck in a math class where NO ONE is your type of person.

i guess what im getting at is, i've been perceived SO many different ways.
and it kind of surprises me.
but i guess thats because i really am shysmittensmileysocialoutcasthappysad all in one.

i dont know

if you realize it, but i love EVERYTHING about you.
and how perfect we are.

i hate it so much when

people tell me that I ALWAYS HAVE A BAD ATTITUDE

because i REALLLLLY dont...

if i am having a bad attitude then im probably just upset or mad..

i really dont have a bad attitude all the time.
it just bothers me

makes me wonder how do people REALLY see me...

i'm nervous

about going back to school..
because it's really sooon

i'm excited for my tech class..
but not my academics at all.

i just hope that i liked at least one person in my tech class haha

im nervous about the changes that will take place.
i mean, i dont think that anything will REALLY change but it will be different..again.
i just need to stop, take a breath, and let things happen one day at a time.
:)
i'm okay.

:)

work was exciting because ryan visited me and i made him a good blast :)

thats all

today has been boring

oh well.
i've just kinda been sitting around waiting for something to happen
i work at 7
but i wish i could go in earlier, cause im really really bored right now

lol
i am even waiting to eat dinner so i can have something interesting to do in an hour.
cause karly is still at the beach and my parents are gone.
meh


oh welll
everyone has one of these days right?
hopefully work wont be too bad.
HOPEfully.

im back from the beach!

it was realllllly nice having ryan come with me :)
even though it IS really overrated, we had a lot of fun.
we went to the beach at night, during sunrise, and even in the middle of the day which was stilllll fun even though there were hundreds of people there.

we went to a waterpark one day and i cried about getting on a slide, and then whined about getting on another one, and he STILL loves me. ;)

he won me an uglydoll on the boardwalk, in an arcade, and we spent a bunch of money trying to win an itouch out of a stacker machine but oh welllll.

waking up in the same room was nice :)
and cuddlin.

but anyways, im home, and i miss dani, and i got her a present at the beach :)

and i already missed ryan after not even a whole day of being apart.

and..i am happppy. truly happy.

school, is less than 2 weeks away already.. ugh.
but i am excited for going to tech, and i am also excited for
ryan and i's two years.
it seems so short but when i look back and think of EVERYTHING that has happened between us, and every moment we hung out, it seems really long.
but yeah..im excited for it. a lot.
:D

and im scared.
but thats me..i think too much hehe.
i'm in love. <3