hi?

what happened.
i mean come onnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
why do i keep feeling the same things over and over again it's seriously like a never ending circle of emotions.
you charm me, so i like you, im still in love with you, heck.
then, then i see things, and i get disappointed, and then i remember the things that i know, and then i just get even more disappointed.
then i feel like i don't care at all. why should i care? but we all know it isn't true.

Please, why did you ever have to change?
why am i still in love with who you were?

why can't i just stop talking to you and moooovvveee on.

the number one reason i guess, is because i don't want to.
and i must stupidly have the teeniest bit of hope that you might still want to try again..because of the things you said that one night. i think that deep down, you still feel that way. but i may never know. i'm dying to know how you feel though, really i am.

no one knows how hard this is,
sure! just move on. sounds easy.


le siiiiighhhhhh

it's like this:

i am single, but my heart is still taken

you will always have a piece of me

this doesn't mean i'm still dwelling or anything, it's just the way it is

i wish i had a beautiful, booming, singing voice

just saying.

anyway, i like to think i am a breath of fresh air.
not someone caught up in all the wrong things.

and recently i've been feeling better about the event on june the 8th.

Happiness hit her like a bullet in the head
Struck from a great height by someone who should know better than that

you're just not the same.
you'll never be the same,
nothing will ever be the same again.

i wish that i felt like i still knew who you are.

i'm so tired of putting up with stuff, im tired of putting what i need to say out there and then just getting my heart stomped all over.

hahaha.

I think you got the best of me
You're sleepin' with the enemy
You left me all alone

I'm sick and tired of the mess you made me
You're never gonna catch me cry

i'm really tired of everything.

just go away.

hi

i guess i'm glad i finally woke up from that dream
and have been pushed into the reality of things.

you'll never understand how hard this is.
no one will.

in the end, i don't know. maybe things can be okay someday.

but i wish you were never different.

okay, that's all i really have to say.

i really didn't want to get my hopes up.
but i guess i couldn't help it.

i will give you time.
just please don't break my heart again

love lost

Our love was lost
In the rubble are all the things
That you've, you've been dreaming of
Keep me in mind
When you're ready
I am here
To take you every time

sillhouette.

Well, I know you won't admit this,
but I am just a silhouette to you.
Found comfort with my distance,
but you never let me stray out of your view.

Who really needs the past,
with the allure of something new?
So, we split apart at last,
I went back to the places that I knew
before you.

And you'll never have to see
the light that wraps itself around me.
And I'll never have to know
the faces and the places you go.

i don't think i understand your intentions.

by the way i think i know more than you'd rather me know..

there's a lot that i don't know about what's been going on. and i'm tired of it. i'm tired of caring, i'm tired of being lied to.

tired of missing you.
tired of thinking that you are the same.

'cause you're not.

i used to know a different you

there is still so much

that i don't even know.

i wish this wasn't as hard as it truly is. hmph.

Our love was lost
But now we've found it
Our love was lost, was lost
And hope was gone

Our love was lost
But now we've found it
And if you flash your heart, your heart
I won't deny it
I promise

I promise

Your walls are up
Too cold to touch it
Your walls are up, are up
Too high to climb

I know it's hard
But I can still hear it beating
So if you flash your heart
I won't mistreat it
I promise

I promise

Our love was lost
In the rubble are all the things
That you've, you've been dreaming of
Keep me in mind
When you're ready
I am here
To take you every time

Oh, our love was lost
Lost, lost, lost, lost..
Our love was lost
But now its found

why do i keep having dreams about you?

please, get out of my dreams unless they are made into a reality.

i miss you.

i miss your face,
i miss your room
i miss your bed
i miss your car
i miss cuddling
i miss sleeping
i miss watching stupid shows together
i miss swimming with you
i miss going places with you
i miss everything
most importantly, i miss how happy we were together.

heh, sorry.

Why do you let me stay here
All by myself?

Why don't you come and play here?
I'm just sitting on the shelf

Why don't you sit right down and stay a while?
We like the same things and I like your style

It's not a secret
Why do you keep it?
I'm just sitting on the shelf

i don't know.

i just want to be appreciated.
i think i deserve some respect.

i like it

that you've been chatting with me lately,
it feels nice.
:)

but i mean, just know, i'm not over you.

you probably already know that though hehe.
i hope for these chats to continue